Saturday; 24/07/2021

Assalamualaikum and helu.

Suddenly rindu zaman studies, my Politeknik years. The first time ever I had to be away from my family for over 3 years. Of course there were holidays which I can go home, but imagine being away of hundred kilometres from home and for a first timer like me it was surely hard as hell tho. Before my Politeknik years, I've been away from home for PLKN but it was only for 3 months and every weekend my family would come visited me (big LOL, such a baby). 

It was the best 3 years of my life. I got to be an "independent girl" lol. It was quite hard to find friends at first since I am an introvert (LOL), Im not really the type that can easily talk to people that I'm not close with. My first encounter was with Wawa, in which clearly she talked to me first lol. Back then, I would rather get lost and be loner than talk to people. Wawa was the first person I talked to, she approached me first bcs we were from Selangor and luckily we found that we're in the same class and courses, YEAYYY. 

Wawa, she's a lot different from me. She is so outspoken about what she really felt and she so friendly and she quite famous around men. We are so contra in terms of personalities but Alhamdulillah we get along pretty well hehe. Still contact and talk to each other until now. Then I met Anis, Yana, Reen, and my other classmates. 

I was a big girl back then, and when I said "big" it really means big in size. I was 95kg and a total potato at that time (still a potato lol). I had this thought back then, "lemme just be ugly and fat so that no one would like me and I don't do the dating thingy and get myself in troubles from it". Nampak tak pengaruh tv kuat lol. To convince my parents to let me go, I promise to them and to myself, that I would just focus on my studies and would never get myself in troubles and voila that's the only way to do it. Lol, at least that's what I thought. 

I was fat and happy (still am huehuehue). I didn't really care about how I look, about my weight. Sometimes diet do cross my mind back then, but I just brushed it off and distracted my mind from it. I was just enjoying my time, with my friends. I miss those times, where I would get really nervous when we needed to present our assignment in front of other students, where I would get really excited when I got to be in the same group with my crush lol, where I got to feel proud when I showed my parents of my result. 

If I was given a chance to go back in time, one of it will be to my studies years. Just to experience it once more, with same circle of peoples of course. Rindunyaaaaaaaaaa T.T