Sat; 07/08/2021

Assalamualaikum and hey.

Hope everyone is doing okay. Its been a quite sad and depressing two weeks for me.

My Akak yg close with me just lost her husband, Abg Faisal. Semoga ditempatkan dalam kalangan orang beriman, Al Fatihah untuk abg Faisal. I just lost two of my close abg, within a year. I can't imagine how Kak Mazni feel right now. Last year Abg Zek meninggal on 5th Raya if im not mistaken. This year suami Kak Mazni pulak 😭 

Abg Zek was my close abg. He was my officemate, though we were in different department, but we become so close like abg and Adik. He treated me like his own Adik. Kak Mazni, Wani, Abg Zek, Ika and me, we were all so close. We used to go to company events together, play badminton together, go lepak2 and air terjun together, eat sushi together (every time after gaji, the first thing Abg Zek would do was ask me or Kak Mazni "so sushi bila?"). We were so close 😭 like a second family to me. Abg Zek was very protective of me and us girls. I miss you Abg Zek, so much. Im sorry I can't be there when you needed me. Im sorry I couldnt be there to send you away, terkilan sangat Abg Zek. Kita sangat sangat terkilan. Masa abg video called, org tak sampai hati nak angkat, tak sampai hati nak tengok abg Zek yg sangat sangat sakit masa tu. Because I've known you as someone who is so healthy and happy go lucky, and I can't accept the fact that you were so sick and you don't look like yourself. Org tak sampai hati bang 😭 This is hard for me, so damn hard for me to accept the fact that you are no longer here with us abg Zek. Org Masih dalam tak percaya, even lepas setahun. Org sayang abg Zek. Abg Zek sentiasa dalam ingatan org, I miss you everyday bang. Al Fatihah.

And this year, abg Faisal pulak. Eventhough im not really close with abg Faisal, but I could feel the lost. Because whenever Kak Mazni go, abg Faisal would always be with her. I can't imagine how Kak Mazni feel right now. I know you are strong kak, you have always been a strong wife all these while. From taking care abg Faisal when he was sick selama Akak kahwin ni. I just hope you are stronger this time around kak. Im sorry I can't be there when you needed me. Im sorry kak 😭 org sayang kak Mazni