28.11.21;

I am someone who can get easily touched to the smallest things. Smallest act of kindness can go long way and make the biggest impact in someone’s life. 

After what happened to miko, my parents decided no cats anymore since they scared same thing gonna happen again if we took in another cat. And me, of course i wanted a cat, but i dont think i can handle another heartbreak after miko. I hurt so much lepas apa jadi kat miko, i fully blame myself for what happened to miko, and i dont think i can be a good cat owner eventhough i love cats so much. Up until now, i still cannot fully moving on from it. I regret what i did every seconds of my life. 

When Miko’s gone, my mom seemed to be most affected. She hurts so much that she decided no more cat, tak sanggup nak tgk kucing sakit and rasa kehilangan lagi. 2 months gone, and my parents realize how sunyi your house can be without a cat. And I realize that too, but i firmly told them that I would rather not taking a new cat than have to bury them sooner or later. So I’m Loving cats from afar. Whenever abah saw a cat or kitten, he’d say “comelnye dia kak, ambik la bawak balik”. And it makes me sad, sbb we both know we wanted cats so bad cuma we afraid of the same thing happening again. Its just abah yg keep telling me he wants cat, and i was just basically ignoring it bcs i know my mom would never approve it. 

Until one day, tiba2 she said “carik la kucing kak, sunyi la. Carik sepasang biar ade kawan”. I kept asking her “betul ke ni? Tak menyesal?” Deep down my heart i was hoping she was just playing around and not being serious bcs it’s hard for me to adopt another cat and be expose to possibilities of losing cat AGAIN. I told my bf about this, and he said “Kucing mati tu fitrah. Setiap yg hidup mesti akan mati. Kita kena redha and terima kenyataan.” Its not that I’m not redha and terima kenyataan, cuma I’m afraid of getting hurt by losing cat again. Thats all. God knows how it hurts losing a cat that was like your bestfriend. Soooo then And i asked for his help to find cats. I literally did not search for cats to adopt, he was the one who do the searching and asking for available cats to adopt 🥺🥺 and he even drove me to pick up the cats. Dahla tempat tu jauh 🥺🥺 I was having a second thoughts about adopting another cat and seeing how gigih he was in searching cats for my parents completely changed me.  

So now I got two kitties hehe they’re so freaking cute and always so stupid, so clingy and so funny. My fam love them so much, they made our house a whole lot better now. Alhamdulillah. I’m still scared tho about losing them, but imma just do my best as cats mommy. Thanks to my man, for making this happened.

Thank you for doing this. I know it means nothing to you but it means a lot to me. I treasure and appreciate every lil things you did. I love you and I thank Allah everyday for this feeling. For this rezeki that I got to meet you at the most unexpected time. And for giving me the best boyfriend ever who loves cats as much as i do. Simplest act can make me terharu. I know i can be too sensitive and kadang2 hambar and boring, and i did absolutely nothing for you ☹️, but i wuv you wholeheartedly and i hope you feel the same too. I hope you can stay loving me and doing the smallest thing like this for me forever 🥺